heartache again

I was going about my business tonight, when all of a sudden, my heart ached again. I wanted to hold Amelia in my arms. So the tears just came, and I cried and cried. And Mike let me cry on his shoulder. Even though she was my unborn 7 month old little girl, I love her with all my heart. Sometimes flashes of her delivery come back to me, the reminder of my hope deferred, and I cry out to God. He has been my ultimate source of comfort, He always hears me. I know I will see Amelia in heaven someday, but oh, that is a long time. In my humanness, eternity seems so far away. Jesus, please take my hurting heart and hold me in your arms. Give me reassurance and Your peace. Amen.