Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I'm a little discouraged.

My post-baby weight is not falling off quite as fast as I'd like it. And it's depressing me. I feel so fat, frumpy and unlovely :(

I've been working out, but I've also become addicted to sweet yummies. I know that's part of the problem and I know it takes time to lose the weight. But I'm still depressed about it.

Went to go try on dresses at Ann Taylor, picked a couple out, but then came home and a family member mentioned that once I got rid of my tummy fat (they said it nicely, but still), they would look better. I all at once put the dresses down, pretended I needed to deal with Katie, rushed down the hallway, and shed tears. Ever gotten into that rut of self-pity?

Well, I'm there.

5 comments:

Carrie said...

Yes. I hear you. It will happen and Joy - I've been reading along with your blog and you seriously are an AMAZINGLY strong woman full of joy and love for your family. Do your part but it takes time, of course. I haven't seen a picture but I'm gonna venture a guess that you are a far shot from frumpy!!!

Joy said...

thank you Carrie!

Song said...

Oh Joy, don't be discouraged! Although I know the feeling. After my last baby, it took nine whole months for it all to come off, and it was oh so gradual. Give yourself some time. May the Lord show you how He sees you and thinks and feels about you in this season, and may that become your definition of beauty, dear Joy. You are so lovely - inside AND out!

Carne Family said...

Sorry Joy. I bet you do look really beautiful. It is just hard when you don't sleep much and have very little time for yourself - then to have the added difficulty of a body that is not cooperating. I've shed the tears too. (It was quite a shock to suddenly be "That chubby blonde lady"! I was horrified.) When I was distraught about it once my husband said "It took nine months for you to gain this extra weight I don't think it is reasonable for you to think that it will come off in less than that." Which I didn't like much but at the same time it was encouraging that he wasn't worried about it. I never have been able to lose all of the weight (exercise, extra goodies or not) until the baby is weaned but I know other women who don't seem to have that trouble...they lived close by me and fit into their skinny jeans when the baby was 6 weeks old. That contributed to some of my tears. If I had to be pudgy couldn't I at least have some company?
I admire you for taking the girls and exercising - every picture i have seen of you you look amazing. Thanks for sharing stuff - I love reading a little bit about your life and am encouraged by your journey.
I have thought alot about it - the whole giving our bodies as a living sacrifice and really think that this is part of that. You are a beautiful example of giving yourself to the Lord.

Joy said...

Kristi, I really appreciate your words. It took me about 9 mos to lose it all with Brilla (about 6 to actually get motivated though) - gained 42 with her. I was really motivated. But to do this cycle two times over again is quite taxing (as you well know!) I do NOT lose naturally while nursing, either. So thank God for husbands and prayer for motivation. I think I'm getting back on track now :)